Gilded Lily
Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Loose Id Titles by Pauline Allan
Pauline Allan
GILDED LILY
Pauline Allan
www.loose-id.com
Gilded Lily
Copyright © June 2013 by Pauline Allan
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Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland: Through the Looking Glass (Garden City NY, International Collector’s Library, 196?), 54.
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Dedication
To JL, for making my sixteenth-birthday wish come true when I blew out the candles. C, for getting out of the truck in the pouring rain at the stop sign in the middle of town. And J, for showing me that strawberry glaze isn’t just for dessert.
Acknowledgments
First I must thank my wonderful editor, Larke Butler. Thank you for your patience and smiley faces. My publisher, Loose Id, for giving me such creative freedom. My father’s late-night debates inspired the writer in me. My angel, for always being on my side and believing in me. A very special acknowledgment for Pauline Réage. Without the Story of O I would never have had the courage to pursue my truth.
Chapter One
Lily stood outside the funeral home with a cigarette clenched between two trembling fingers. The stale taste lingered against her lips as she blew the small billow of smoke into the warm afternoon breeze. It was only on rare occasions she needed to light up. The day her ex walked out. The reading of her grandmother’s will. When her mother called to state, matter-of-factly, that the lump in her breast wasn’t a caffeine deposit. This was another event to tag on to the growing list.
Cigarette teetering between her lips, she rifled through her purse for a mint. She should’ve pulled her hair up. Tony always knew what was best, she thought. Should’ve worn the flat sandals too, and definitely should’ve swiped on some extra deodorant. All the wishing in the world wasn’t going to bring Tony here. He didn’t care much for New York; besides, he was overrun at the office. But the patients could’ve waited. She’d been his submissive for three years, after all, and needed him more than ever.
Finally. She thumbed the tiny lid on the plastic container and shook the last green pellet into her palm. After grinding the fire-red end of the cigarette into the sand pit ashtray, she shoved the candy into her mouth. She stuffed the container into her purse and fished out the compact mirror. She checked her lipstick and hair. “Nicholas was right,” she said to herself, clipping the compact closed and dropping it back into her purse. “If there’s not a man marching with an umbrella and a band behind him, what’s the point of a funeral? Why else is the word fun in it?”
Two tall men stood by the frosted glass doors. Their gentle nods preceded their opening the doors for her to enter. Lily politely smiled and walked through into a hall lined with the other guests. Clutching her bag, she tightened her fingers together around the leather straps. The feel of leather was a reminder of comfort. The sensation of a supple belt snapping against her bare skin always led to the delicious heat of the sting.
The reel in her head played in repetition. It was Tony’s voice telling her she could do this. You can do this. Deep breaths… Follow the line.
God, Tony, I need you.
Deep breaths… Follow the line. You can do this.
Tony…
She slid the purse straps over her shoulder and tucked her hands to their familiar position behind her back. The silk blouse Tony had chosen for her to wear fluttered against her heated skin. Nicholas, God rest his soul, used to tell her she dressed like a schoolteacher and acted like a schoolgirl. Lily grinned, thinking about his handsome face, the way he’d pull his baseball cap down to shade his eyes from the bright sun. She stifled fresh tears and took a deep breath before stepping toward a small podium.
It was her turn at the guest book. She penned her name, then stared at the space next to her shaky handwriting. Affiliation. That’s all the title read. What should she write there? Friend… simply friend. That was as good a title as any, she guessed.
She moved aside to let the man behind her have access to the book. An older couple passed and she followed them through the archway. The line to the coffin was long. She decided it’d be best not to go up to see him yet. Seeing her friend lying in a box wasn’t something she was ready to face. Such a colorful man. Greenery and white roses? Lily gave a quiet snort. Anyone who really knew him would’ve brought hibiscus and daffodils. Choosing a folding chair in the rear of the large seating area, she inconspicuously sat down.
The overwhelming heaviness in her chest pushed her senses into a numb void as she scanned the room, watching people come and go through the wide set of French doors. Some stood at the coffin for what seemed like an eternity, wiping away tears as the person next to him or her held the weeper’s shaking shoulders. An older gentleman with distinguished salt-and-pepper hair stood at the head of the mahogany coffin. Nicholas’s father, she guessed. Nicholas had spoken of him often enough that Lily recognized the distinct features Nicholas had described. He’d say he got his father’s chiseled jawline and big hands, while his brother got his father’s brooding attitude and broad shoulders. The memory of long nights spent in two lawn chairs with a couple of bottles of red lingered after the summer had said good-bye. Lily was sure the last bottles they’d shared were still sitting on the stable-house porch.
Standing close to the gentleman’s side was another man, quite younger. The brooding brother. Both brothers shared striking features. Nicholas’s natural hair color was dark. He’d have Lily lighten it on occasion, but
it was as chocolate brown as the man’s standing by the coffin. This man was a bit taller than Nicholas, with broader shoulders, but both had the same long legs and easy stance.
Lily adjusted in her seat and crossed her ankles. Immediately remembering Tony’s instructions, she unwrapped her ankles to gently press her knees together. Her dominant might be loving, but he was also insistent she obey him at all times. Even when he wasn’t present.
She lowered her gaze before anyone could see her admiring her friend’s brother. It’s a funeral, for Christ’s sake. Couldn’t she keep her thoughts clean long enough to mourn her dear friend? She snickered, realizing Nicholas wouldn’t have minded. He’d have done the same thing, along with commenting on the atrocious outfit his aunt was wearing or how the white roses looked silly in the little cherub vase.
The way he used to talk about his boyfriends was hilarious. If his dates wore the wrong color sweater or ate like a pig on safari, he shut them down. There always seemed to be some quirk that turned him off. Every man tried too hard, robbed too much of his time. Lily admired his independence, his ability to walk away and always find acceptance in the next man. She was learning, with the help of Tony, to discover the strength within her, a courage she’d longed to claim and embrace.
She could hear Nicholas’s sweet voice, “I’m a little devil, not a little angel.”
Lily looked up as the tall, dangerously handsome man came closer. Had Nicholas told his brother about their relationship? She knew while Nicholas had lived on her property, he’d kept up correspondence with his brother. A nauseating panic filled her stomach. Did he know who she was? What would she say? Did he know the nature of her friendship with Nicholas? God he’s sexy. The way his long legs moved with a smooth and easy stride spoke of confidence, an awareness he had no one to impress. This was a man who took his sweet time whenever he pleased. A man who made her mouth water and her nipples harden, and he was walking right toward her. He was almost within reach. Lily sat on her hands with her purse resting on her lap.
“Hello.” He extended his large hand. His voice was a deep baritone, much like Tony’s.
The way his emerald gaze skimmed her face made the funny feeling in her stomach ease. She couldn’t look away from the hint of melancholy shimmering in his eyes as his smile rose with his warm greeting. An ache seethed through her. Taken aback by his size and beauty, she had an overwhelming urge to touch him. Is he real?
“Hello,” she managed to say before reaching out to shake his hand. The warmth of his palm made her fingers tingle. Safe.
“May I?” He gestured to the empty seat next to her.
Lily nodded and tried to say, “Of course,” but wasn’t sure if that was what had actually come out of her nervous mouth. She repeated the words, in case she’d looked like the idiot she felt like. “Of course.”
“So, you must be the elusive flower,” he said and leaned back in the folding chair, which was obviously too small for his height.
Lily repositioned the purse on her lap. “I’m sorry?”
“Nick’s Lily Flower. That’s what he called you.” He rubbed his hand on the back of his neck. “It is you, isn’t it? Lily Desclose—famous writer, world-renowned educator of religious history? Oh, and subject of all my brother’s letters. I’m Adam Stark.”
She scooted farther back into her chair to get a better view of him. “Yes, I guess I am. I mean, I’m a writer and religious history professor—on leave at the moment. I didn’t know Nicholas wrote letters about me.”
“My brother had quite an imagination, a real eye for beauty.” He leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees.
She looked over in time to see him peeking back at her from the corner of his intense eyes. “Yes, he did.”
He returned his attention to the guests standing by the coffin. “You’re very beautiful.”
“Like you said, Nicholas had a wonderful imagination,” she said, trying to shrug off the embarrassing compliment. “He was quite lively. I rather enjoyed that about him.”
“You came a long way for this. Where are you staying tonight?”
“I’ll be heading back after the ceremony,” she said. “I’ve already booked a flight.”
“To Baton Rouge?”
“Yes, home.” He unsettled her, made her crazy libido skip up into overdrive, making each word thick and difficult to say. Even breathing became a chore with him sitting so uncomfortably close.
“Would you mind if I came next week to go through Nick’s things?” He cleared his throat, making the masculine column ripple. “I’d like to get things wrapped up as soon as possible.” He leaned back again, stretching his legs out under the chair in front of him.
“That would be fine. You can take all the time you need.” She took a breath. “Will your father be coming with you? I know Nicholas wished he could’ve seen him more than he was able to.”
“No, he won’t. I’ll be coming alone.”
“I see.” Lily stood up, needing to create a space between them; she stepped back and brushed the creases from her skirt. “Well, Mr. Stark, I’m glad to have finally met you. I’m truly sorry for your loss and will miss Nicholas terribly.”
“Adam,” he said.
“I beg your pardon?”
“Call me Adam.” The sullen expression on his face turned downright sad. “Mr. Stark sounds so impersonal.”
“Adam, I’ve taken you from your family long enough. I’m going to freshen up and let you get back to your guests.” This time she extended her hand, hoping he wouldn’t be able to see the slight tremble that shivered through it.
He peered up from his relaxed position. “And you’re also as elusive as he said.” He stood before her, revealing his full height. For a moment she wondered how it would feel to rest her cheek against the bulk of his chest, taking in the warmth of the dark lapels of his suit jacket. He took her hand into both of his. She fought the urge to rip her hand away. “If you’ll give me your number, I’ll give you a call next week and let you know when I’ll be coming.”
“That’d be fine.” He continued to cradle her hand between his palms. She could feel the subtle trembling in her fingers begin to ease. She let go and opened her wallet. “Here’s my card.”
He pocketed the card. “Thank you, Ms. Desclose, for taking such an interest in my brother. I know he cared for you very much. He held you in the highest regard.”
“And he was a dear friend who made me laugh and enjoy all aspects of the color blue.”
“Ah yes, the artist,” he said, seemingly amused by the idea of Nicholas being a painter. “Yes, he was,” Lily agreed. “I wish I’d had the chance to see one of his shows here in the city.” The rough skin on his hands grazed the soft pads of her fingertips.
“It was always a sight to behold; his openings, I mean.”
She didn’t want to seem rude by looking down. Instead she slipped her fingers over the scarred strips of flesh on his palm, feeling the contrast between the two textures. Eventually she slipped her hand from his gentle grip. How had his hand been injured?
“Okay,” he said as he began to back away. He speared his long fingers through the bangs tossed across his forehead. “If you change your mind about the red-eye flight, you’re more than welcome to have dinner with me.”
Lily had to stifle the urge to reach over and feel the texture of the silky brown strands. “Oh, that’s very generous of you, but I really must get back. Thank you, though.”
“That’s disappointing. I wish we could’ve spent some time together. To talk about Nick. I wish we could talk more about Nick.” He paused for a long moment and seemed to examine her. “Lily Flower.”
The image of his warm smile lingered as she turned to make her way to the coffin. The appropriate thing to do was to pay her last respects. As the polished wood coffin came closer into view, Lily felt her knees begin to buckle. She wanted to remember her dear friend with his wicked smile and wearing cutoff jean shorts, not like this. She turned before
reaching the coffin and headed for the door.
WHAT IN THE hell just happened, Adam thought as he stood watching the most luscious, swaying ass walk away. He should’ve grabbed the soft curve of her waist and held her against him. The last thing he needed was for her to dismiss him when he just got the chance to finally meet her. Putting his foot down, kissing the hell out of her, and spanking her sweet backside were what she deserved for disobeying. Dinner would’ve given him the chance to learn what his brother’s last days were like, allowed him a bit longer to smell the heady floral scent on her skin, listen to that sultry voice. Yes, turning her ass up and reddening it would’ve been perfect.
Wait… The last time he tried that, it had turned out to be one of the most disastrous decisions of his life. The woman he’d met at the bar didn’t play that way. The night ended with an embarrassed silence as she’d gathered her clothes and dressed in the bathroom. There were no calls the next day. Adam knew then not every woman would be into his particular kink. Hell, by that point he wasn’t sure how he felt about it. The only thing for certain was that he needed a woman who could match his needs and not run away. A woman who would not play the part, but need to be submissive to his dominance.
The submissives he’d encountered at the club always knew how to act the part. There were no challenges, for that matter, no instruction. Oh sure, they moaned and shook their little asses, but for only one reason. They wanted to be fucked. True passion had been left at the door.
The clubs weren’t his cup of tea anyway. A dom once told him a true sub comes willingly and submits only to pleasure, not tricks. God, Adam wanted that more than anything. To know how to bring pleasure without the party tricks. He wanted a woman to know his true nature—to feel the same desire and release as he did when he took the belt to her or tied her up.
He’d masturbated to a thousand videos. He’d watched others at the club. He’d scared the hell out of a fiancée because she thought he was barbaric. Who knew? Maybe he was. But Lily’s full ass walking away got his instincts humming and his dick rock hard. Damn, he could picture the smile on Nick’s face right now. He could almost feel his younger brother standing next to him, laughing. Adam was ogling the eye candy that had just walked out the door while Nick was sleeping in the casket. Nick would expect no less. Adam grinned and looked over at the coffin. God, he’d give anything to hear that laugh again.